I lost sight of Gloria

SO! I haven't posted here in a while because I'm lazy, really. I'm located over on Tumblr now, for the most part (same name!) and while I miss the comment threads here on LJ, I like a lot more of the platform for Tumblr? Especially for fandomy things.

But! Life-update, yes?

( In list form 'cause that's how I roll )

I'm gonna be sitting up at social services tomorrow for god knows how long, so I'm looking for some prompts.

I'm basically wanting prompts for any and all things, seriously. At this point, I'm not gonna be choosy.

Please?

1.) It's a sort of happy thing in that I've got my English exam tomorrow. On one hand, YAY, because I'll finally be done. But on the other hand, I'll still have my History class to contend with until, like, next Thursday. Which isn't bad or anything, just frustrating. But, still, one class down, 3 to go before this semester is over!

2.) I've got some video of Molly being a PRECIOUS DORK about the garbage can that I'm gonna put up soon because oh god, her big stupid fuzzy self. ♥

3.) In recent months, I've slowly started wanting more make-up that's suited for me, rather than stuff I was given? I have a decent supply of eye-shadow that I love (which is handy when you and your Mom have nearly the same eye color and such), but I wanted some lipstick like burning. I've always had glosses, and I've never used them because they tend to get goopy way too fast. So the other day, I was out and about at CVS and I found a shade that I really liked and it was on sale? It's Covergirl's 'Spellbound' and it is GORGEOUS. I'm in love with it...so, uh, have a picture. XD

( Picture and other blathering! )

1.) I basically did fuck all today and it was fabulous. I've been curled up on the couch playing computer games, 'cause why not, right?

2.) I know what classes I wanna sign up for, but it'll depend on availability and such. I'll do that on Tuesday. Tomorrow, however, Gramma and I are going up to Social Services to apply for food stamps in the hopes that we can get SOME assistance. Moving was a good thing, and it really was, but the cost of living is far greater. We've got a fabulous deal on an amazing house, but it still leaves us struggling from time to time - especially when I only get 86 dollars a week from unemployment and everything. So we're hoping that we can get something to at least get us through.

3.) There is going to be new Game of Thrones and new Vikings. LAGERTHA, MY QUEEN. *_____* Also, I have the hugest crush on Ragnar. DUDE, THOSE EYES. Seriously, hello, sir. Also Bjorn is the best/worst little shit and I love him and Athelstan interacting in the way they do, ahahaha!

Today was a good day. :-)

1.) My hearing was this morning. After spending 15 minutes with my unemployment officer attempting to get Jane - the former boss - on the phone to no avail, we were finally able to get her son, Jeremy on the phone. He then told us that Jane wasn't in and WOULD NOT BE IN UNTIL 3 OR 4PM. You know what that means?

Well, what that means is that the employer did not show and thus forfeit the hearing. It means that the claim was dismissed and I'm in the clear. It also means that she can NOT open up another appeal and cannot try anything like this again because she did not show. I'M SO RELIEVED AND HAPPY AND JESUS, I WISH I WAS A FLY ON THE WALL FOR WHEN THAT BITCH CALLED THE UNEMPLOYMENT GUY. AHAHAHAHAH, SUCK IT.

Ahem. Anyways. Yes.

2.) I actually have really fabulous classmates? I had dismissed a few of them because they NEVER SHUT THE FUCK UP while our teacher was talking, which was frustrating. However, as it's gone on, they've become far more tolerable and I've made tentative friends with them. I'd been talking about the issues with this unemployment thing and when I walked in, they were IMMEDIATELY like HOW DID IT GO, ARE YOU OKAY, WHAT'S UP? And I just. Stood there and told them what went on and all of them were so genuinely happy and lovely?

I didn't expect that. I think that I don't expect much from my classmates which is sad, but dude, the idiotic conversations I have heard have been frustrating. But as it's gone on, it's gotten better. And they were just so nice and happy and I may or may not have kind of started crying.

3.) It was a lovely day and I'm really lucky to have the friends I have in my life and the last few weeks, I'm sure I've tried their patience and through that, they've been fabulously supportive and that goes for all of you as well. I am just. I am in an overwhelming place of gratitude and love for you guys. It's kind of like today pulled the cork of everything I've been shoving down. Mostly, everything positive.

So today was, in fact, a very good day.

rsadelle does this meme every November where she gives thanks for something every single day. I've always liked it and I think that as I'm dealing with everything right now, it's something that I want to modify for myself.

So I'm going to try and post 3 happy things per day because at least I can start realizing the good in my bad days.

1.) My research paper of DOOOOOOM was turned in today. I was worried about it and then I got to class and not only was I one of five students present but we were five out of the normal fifteen. Which made me laugh. So, I mean. Yeah. But I finished it, I edited, and I turned it in today and that was fucking awesome.

2.) Yoga! I started going to Yoga 3 weeks ago, now. I needed something for myself and I needed something to help me meet and talk to people. Plus, I found a local studio that was cheap (5 bucks a session!) and around 5 minutes away from me. WIN. I've not been as smooth in transitioning from certain poses to other poses, but today, I actually managed a few rather smooth transitions in so much as what was basically a push-up. I got a compliment from the teacher, which was lovely and made me feel very good. I was also able to not use blocks for one pose and get myself all the way to the floor which I was VERY proud of.

3.) I got tons of compliments on my yoga mat bag and my water bottle holder! A few months back, I started teaching myself how to use a sewing machine, using Jamie's mom's machine that she let me borrow. It's as old as I am, ahahaha, but I've learned how to use it and I took to it kind of, well. Hm. Not like a duck to water, but you know how it goes. I've made a bunch of pouches and such, but I decided that I needed a bag for my new yoga mat and I looked up a tutorial or two and made one. I made a holder for my water bottle so the poor thing wouldn't sweat all over the floor of the studio, ahahaha. But they turned out pretty cute and are exceptionally handy.

So yes, happy things in the middle of a mostly crap day. And I actually feel better for talking about them.

So, ahahahahaahahahahhhahaaha, my Mom has a tumblr now!

Jesus.

She's going by MayQueen71 on there and because I'm mostly amused, but mostly not wanting her to find me, I'm debating about a name change over there. SO, UH, YEAH.

I dunno what it is, yet. I'm thinking SpillTheSunshine517 or something? IDK.

But, uh, yeah. SHE'S THERE. SHE'S HANGING OUT IN THE ZEPPELIN STUFF. AND POSSIBLY DOCTOR WHO.

SHE IS COMING.*







*She isn't going to give three fucks at what she sees and/or finds, but, uh. Still. It's weird but fucking hilarious.

I'm getting really tired of getting shat on.

I feel like for every step forward I take, I get shoved back five. I can't fucking win for losing. I'm tired of it.

Fingers fucking crossed that my former boss contesting my benefits doesn't mean I won't get this week's benefits 'cause I need gas and I have to get to school tomorrow and Thursday. My grandmother thinks she's a fucking gift for advice after telling me "don't let it worry you" about my upcoming hearing with the unemployment people on the 18th.

I got to spend time with Jamie and Jeff today, which was lovely and I miss them like a hole cut out of my side. I get to see fictionalfaerie sometime on Wednesday and that's fabulous. But I have this fucking rain cloud just hanging over my head from waiting for this fucking unemployment hearing.

I can barely keep food down and any food I keep down, ends up making my stomach just ache because of the stress. I'm just so tired...tired of crying, tired of being stressed. I wanna sleep for three days and not worry about anything but myself. I want my stomach to stop hurting and I think I really just want my mother and grandmother telling me that there's no sense in worrying because the worst that can happen is they rescind my benefits.

Yeah, that is the worst. But that's not taking into account the consequences of my benefits being rescinded. I just.

Mentally exhausted all over again.

Well, my day turned from great to kind of crappy. I finished my paper FUCK YEAH, but I got a packet from the unemployment people stating that my former boss had appealed my benefits. What this this means is that I have to have a hearing on the 18th so that I can basically prove that she's in the wrong and such. And I am just. All over the place about it.

But there's nothing I can do about it until Monday, so DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?

IT MEANS THAT WE'RE GONNA HAVE A GOOD, OL' FASHIONED COMMENT BREAKING PARTY.

LET'S TALK. ASK QUESTIONS. PROMPT THINGS. COME ON, LET'S DO IT.

So, I spent the night with xandri last night, letting myself have a brief amount of work followed by a night off of working on the paper. And then today, while hanging out, I went and word-vomited about 4 and a half pages, so I'm currently sitting pretty on (close to) 13 pages. FUCK YEAH.

Jamie and Jeff are coming into town tonight on a brief stop before they leave for Florida in the morning. So I'm going to go and see them briefly tonight.

I'm going to take tomorrow off of school, finish my paper, edit some of my paper and then do my Sociology. I don't have to worry about a test, since I did both tests last week, but I'm going to take the day and finish this blasted paper.

I'm feeling better about it and less like freaking the fuck out.

OH! So, I decided that I would like to start doing Yoga because I wanted something that would (A) get me out of the house that wasn't school and (B) something for stress and a bit of exercise. Well, as luck would have it, there's a studio near me in downtown Concord that was offering sessions for 5 bucks and. Uh, I was totally down for it. I meant to go last week, but my money kind evaporated before I could even think about it.

But then I saw that they'd put a new class up, a beginner's class, on Tuesdays. Cue me getting really excited. So I went last night.

It turns out I am way more flexible than I thought, but my balance is terrible. But the instructor was fabulous, the space is beautiful, and the other people in the class were lovely. I was so delighted and by the time I came out of it, I didn't feel like having an anxiety attack and my headache was actually gone. I kind of want to grab the instructor and be like I LOVE YOU, THANK YOU.

Downside: HOLY GOD, EVERYTHING HURTS. It's a good hurt though! XD

So, in short, Today was much better. ♥