Let me tell you about what's going on with me right now.

[mayqueen517]

My Mom has been out of work on leave since...the end of May. Around the end of May, ironically enough, near hector_rashbaum's visit, Mom started having severe anxiety attacks and really started suffering through intense depression.

Since then, she's been working on herself and working through things to try and get back to being able to go to work. So far, this is her fourth week out of work and she's still not sure if she's gonna be able to brave going back yet.

I'm worried about her to the point that sometimes, I hole up in the bathroom and cry because I have no idea what to do. I'm looking for a job and nothing is happening.

I've spoken with people time and time again to get a job and nothing. I've submitted multiple applications and multiple copies of my resume and nothing. At this point, I don't know.

I'm worrying about Mom, I'm trying to find a job, and to top it all off, Molly's hurt.

Molly was playing in the yard when all of a sudden she yelped SUPER LOUDLY and then proceeded to try and play it off. She was limping kind of badly at some points, and we talked it over and made the decision to take her to the vet today, to see if she injured something.

She couldn't really get up on the bed without help, or down from it without help. She needs help coming back up the steps. She's having trouble going to the bathroom because she's holding her left leg so gingerly.

So we took her to the vet this morning and they said that she has something called Patellar Luxation. What that means is the ligament that's attatched to her knee has been torn and thus, keeps popping in and out of place.

What this also means is that she needs surgery. Surgery and a one to three day vet stay so they can keep an eye on her and such. Then we'll bring her home.

Once she’s home, she’ll have to be kept “quiet”, which basically means we’ve gotta keep her as calm as possible. No running etc.

This surgery and vet stay is going to cost anywhere between 1200 to 1500 dollars.

At this point, I'm ready to say I give up and be done. I just want to fucking cry because I don't know what we're going to do. I have no fucking clue.

None.

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[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

Like I told hector_rashbaum "I keep kind of just. thinking, over and over and over, "what can we do, is there any way we can afford this, what if we can't. we kind of really can't. why can't mom have taken the pet insurance out two days earlier. WHY IS IT ALWAYS US" and then whoops, kind of makes me cry.

We can't let her be in pain, we can't. But I do not actually see a feasible way for us to do this...even with our amazing and understanding vet letting us make payments."

I just don't know what we're going to do. I've gotta work tomorrow night, which will be nice, because I'll be getting out of the house and I'll actually enjoy the concert I'm working (Def Leppard/Heart, woot), but even still. That's...maybe 40 bucks. Which isn't BAD, no, but still.

I keep thinking I should make a bunch of things and put them up for sale but then I feel like I'm begging people for charity and IDK. I just. I really don't know right now, honestly.

Thank you though. You are the sweetest person, hon. *hugs tight*