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[mayqueen517]

Today was kind of awful, because I spent most of it kind of prickly and trying to escape to the bedroom to have a good crying jag and listen to music and veg out. Instead, Gramma wouldn't leave me alone, kept wanting to talk about innane stuff, so I spent most of the day feeling on edge and tense.

I finally came into the living room and put on Doctor Who ('cause Mom got me Season 5. ♥__♥) and was able to destress a little. It also had the added bonus of the fact that Vincent And The Doctor makes me cry like a babyyyyyy, and I could just blame it on Doctor Who.

The sucky part is that what I would really love right now is a hug. I just want someone to hug me and let me hang on and cling to them, but I can't ask for that. It's hard for me to ask for hugs, idk. (It's part of why, when I met Sisky in August, I spent two weeks afterward FLAILING silently, because it was exactly what I needed sometimes, to be able to look back at.) (I will hug the fuck out of you upon meeting you and I LOVE hugs...but it's stupidly hard for me to ask.)

Anyways, the whole point of this is that things have been sucky today, the 3 words thing is amazingly lovely and I can't stop making quiet little heart-eyes at it.



But you know what I wanna do? I wanna break some comments tonight. I don't think I've ever broken 100 comments in this journal. Or any journal, really.

ETA: OH WAIT, I HAVE BROKEN 100 COMMENTS IN THIS JOURNAL BEFORE. Whoops. WHATEVS, LET'S DO IT AGAIN.

So come on, guys. Ask me random questions, let's comment!fic. SOMETHING. Let's do that photo tag thingy. At least, I think that's what it's called. (where someone posts a picture, and the response to it has to be kind of similar? IDK)

Comments

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

and its a BOY! come out come out wherever you are :D

I kinda want the school to have called his parents, and they bustle in all ready to meet their future daughter-in-law, and there's Mike, scowling...

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Oh ahahahahahaha! Joe is just like, only you, dude.

And poor Kevin is just facepalming.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

He just DIDN'T KNOW he was even a teeny bit gay. Yeah, they were in showbiz, but they were very sheltered and he never really gave it much thought beyond "there are people who call themselves gay"

Carden, I can hear your thoughts. Stop sniggering.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Yeah, they were in showbiz, but they were very sheltered and he never really gave it much thought beyond "there are people who call themselves gay"

I don't wanna be bitchy, but I think I will cry hardcore if you phrase it like that in the fic. Like, I will cry SO HARD, because it's only been in the past two months that Jamie's stopped making jokes about how I'm really not a lesbian, I just call myself that (thankfully, she realized that it actually was hurting me hardcore and stopped it). And that line of thinking sucks ass and hurts.


But moar Kevin nagging Mike about his thoughts, ahahahaha

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

I was actually thinking more about myself, where I had heard the term, but never really thought abotu what it actually was. Like: i could have given you a dictionary definition of lesbian, or homosexual, but it wasn't until I went to uni and, true story, a girl stopped me at the ref, looked me up and down, smiled, gave me a hug, and handed me a flier to the campus gay group.

And only THEN did I start thinking about it in terms of the personal pronoun, and the proverbial lightbulb went off. Yes, I was that silly :D

And Kevin and Carden can swap thoughts and....woah, Mike! my mom's in the room, and...wait, people can actually bend like that?

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Sore spot, sorry! (Mostly because it took me a long while to really come to grips with my own sexuality and thus BLEEP BLEEP BLEEP *!!*) (sorry)

And it's not silly! I have a hard time remembering that not everyone had comfortably out friends to be role models in high school, I guess?

And ahahahahaha, oh, Mike. <3

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

As I said to...someone, in comments yesterday: fanfic - where I work out all my issues :D (oh man, I look back on my highschool self and go 'there's a REASON you don't date, and it's got nothing to do with any of the reasons you say it doesn't! PAY ATTENTION TO THE OTHER HALF OF THE SCHOOL POPULATION, GIRL!' ~cough~ *g*) Ahh, the joys of going to a religious school in a conservative country town (remember girls, if it shows, you go)

LOL, is it wrong that all i can think of, character-wise, is Kevin going "at least I don't have to take my English test" and Mike's all "i'm so glad our that the beginning of our lifelong telepathic partnership has gotten you out of a 10% test." But he's smiling when he thinks it, so Kevin feels kinda okay.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Ohhh, wow. I went to a public high school that had the highest percentage (in a couple of counties) of students who were out. Which, for this being the southern part of the US, WHOA.

Ahahahahahahaha, omggggggggggg, yes.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

I actually didn't meet anyone out until I was...17, 18? Didn't become friends with anyone who was queer in any way til I was 21 and moved to the city permanently (she did pretty much adopt me and taught me much in the ways of the gay, it was AWESOME! I didn't even know we HAD a gay club).

ANd people wonder why I'm SO PASSIONATE about good portrayals of homosexuality in the media. :D

Mike and Kevin bicker like an old married couple from the get-go? But Bill is staring like it's magic - CARDEN IS SMILING! I REPEAT, CARDEN IS SMILING! RED ALERT! RED ALERT! WOOP WOOP WOOP!

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

*nods*

And ahahaha, we've got a couple. There's a really good one around here, called Scorpios, that features weekly drag competitions. ♥_♥

And ommmggg, yessssssssss. Bill is delighted with the darling that is Mike/Kevin.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

ah, my teenage issues, let me share them with you. or not, they're rather dull in comparison :D

Bill suspects trickery or witchcraft. It is still his Carden (he has the bruised bicep to prove it), but this one is smiling like a Stepford Wife.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

My teenage issues mainly centered around issues with my Dad? I wasn't yet 15 when my Dad killed himself, and it was. A lot. It was only after that, when I became an adult, that I had issues with my sexuality and how I identified.

And ahahahaha, Carden finds it really hard to be sullen. KEVIN IS HAPPY, LIKE, ALL THE TIME.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

group hug?

AND AHAHA, KEVIN IS LIKE A LITTLE MENTAL HAPPYBALL! Carden has to refocus his grumpyness!

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

LET'S HUG IT OUT

*HUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSSS*


And ahahahaha, yessss. Sometimes Carden is trying to study and THAT IS HARD with Happyface over there.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

~iconic huggery~

Carden has a REPUTATION to maintain, okay? He's a hardass, and that's hard to keep up when he's humming Disney tunes because they're stuck in Kevin's head!

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

It's really hard to be sullen and ENH when you've got Kevin glee!facing over tiny animals, okay?

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

And tackle-glomping you in the corridors

there's only one thing for it: Kevin is the happy one, Carden is the one who will cut your shit up if you so much as look at him and his happy, animla-loving, musical-humming ways, okay?

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Yesssss

And ahahahahhaa, yes. And GOD help you if you make Kevin NOT all. Musical-humming, animal-loving happy.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

anyone who upset Kevin got a heat-seeking Carden coming after them with extreme prejudice

what got most casual observers was the way they thought Kevin seemed oblivious to Carden's protective bastardry.

But Kevin is well aware of it - he's actually rather taken with it, it's just Mike's way of showing he cares :D

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Carden is almost as protective of Kevin as he is Bill. Which...is saying a lot, whoa.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

but Kevin got that way overnight, whereas with Bill, it was a gradual process, so there's a bit ore shock regarding Kevin.

For his part, Kevin helps Carden avoid the worst of the repercussions (he's soulbonded to one of the school's most famous students, no way he's getting expelled now!) and goes to make friends with Bill

which is actually rather easy once Bill deems him worthy of Carden's affections.

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

Bill has a lot of ridiculously earnest conversations with Kevin that's way more funny than it should be.

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

but Kevin is right there with him in earnestness. Mike just sits next to them, holding Kevin's hand and grinning at them and scowling at anyone who dares come near enough to interrupt


Bill and Kevin - writing together?

[mayqueen517.livejournal.com]

And ahahahahaha, Mike will cut a bitch for interrupting them. (yes, even you, Sisky)

And mostly, I think that they'd be the type to study together. BILL HELPING KEVIN ON HIS ENGLISH HOMEWORK, WHAT WHAT. XD

[akire-yta.livejournal.com]

(101 comments, oh my!)

Oh YES! BILL MAKES SHAKESPEARE SOUND AWESOME (Bill can totally declaim)