jesus christ

[mayqueen517]

I'm getting really tired of getting shat on.

I feel like for every step forward I take, I get shoved back five. I can't fucking win for losing. I'm tired of it.

Fingers fucking crossed that my former boss contesting my benefits doesn't mean I won't get this week's benefits 'cause I need gas and I have to get to school tomorrow and Thursday. My grandmother thinks she's a fucking gift for advice after telling me "don't let it worry you" about my upcoming hearing with the unemployment people on the 18th.

I got to spend time with Jamie and Jeff today, which was lovely and I miss them like a hole cut out of my side. I get to see fictionalfaerie sometime on Wednesday and that's fabulous. But I have this fucking rain cloud just hanging over my head from waiting for this fucking unemployment hearing.

I can barely keep food down and any food I keep down, ends up making my stomach just ache because of the stress. I'm just so tired...tired of crying, tired of being stressed. I wanna sleep for three days and not worry about anything but myself. I want my stomach to stop hurting and I think I really just want my mother and grandmother telling me that there's no sense in worrying because the worst that can happen is they rescind my benefits.

Yeah, that is the worst. But that's not taking into account the consequences of my benefits being rescinded. I just.

Mentally exhausted all over again.

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She is appealing my right to benefits because, and I have a hearing on the 18th to determine if:
1 - "Whether the claimant (me) left work without good cause attributable to the employer"
and
2 - "Whether the claimant was discharged for misconduct or substantial fault connected with work."

Basically she is saying that I quit following discipline following misconduct. Which is bullshit, but that's okay, because I've got witnesses and if she thinks I'm going down quietly or without a fight then she is going to be in for a rude awakening.

I was reprimanded for my tone and I had gotten into a mild argument with Christy (she said something, I snapped at her and walked off, but it was in front of a coworker and two year olds/babies) (That is literally the "altercation" she keeps referring to.) and was put on leave following said argument. And slowly but surely, the conversations turned from putting me on leave due to my conduct but became more about me getting a doctor's note stating that I was "mentally stable to be around children" to return to work. My doctor refused to put that onto a doctor's note (as that would never leave me alone) and Jane didn't like that it didn't say exactly what she wanted. So I was put off for a few days and then by the end, she felt that I was "pushing too hard to come back to work" and so she let me go.

So that's basically what I dealt with in the first two weeks of December. And then six weeks later, I got my benefits.

And it is just NOW that Jane is appealing them. So YEAH, that's what I've been dealing with ON TOP of writing a paper and everything else.