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My sister keeps calling me brave and I don't know how to respond to it. I love my sister and value her opinion, so I know that she wouldn't just say it to say it, so she's saying it because she believes it.

But she is only thirteen, and to her, it is very brave to talk to people in bands. And I keep trying to tell her, I'm not that brave, I'm not that great, and tonight, while eating dinner and chatting on the phone with her (as we tend to do), and I said a few things about not being brave or great...and she just got really quiet before quietly hanging up on me.

And I didn't know how to handle it...but I chalked it up to the whole...teenager thing, right? So I called her back, and she was kind of upset!

When I asked her why she was so upset, she got quiet and said, I love you and I do think you're brave. It's why I wanna be like you.

And I swear to you, all I could do was cry. Because here's this kid who has a vague idea of all the shit I've ended up going through and she thinks I'm brave and awesome and. I don't actually know how to respond to that. I'm not good with compliments, especially when they're compliments like that.

I just...even though I have no idea how to respond, I do know that I have the best damned little sister in the world.

♥